CONFUSED AND HAPPY

I find it hard to have patience       
my hands get sweaty when the wind blows     

and when I waste time              
when I waste time              
when I waste time ...
ahh...

Too soon we hadn’t finished yet      
what does it matter if time treated us unfairly  
and I was studying the best way to say things     
balancing on the edge of my own words      

(A) now that I have nothing to explain        
there’s not much left to hide             
now that days grow old and slip through our fingers    
there are no shadows left to chase...

Too soon we hadn’t understood yet     
that giving up can sometimes be a good thing     
and I invented ways to be always right  
and did not feel the weight of my own words     

(A).........

and I’m afraid of being left alone       
of being the same as yesterday           

(A).........

and I’m afraid of being left alone, 
left alone, of being the same as yesterday           

How come you don’t feel like talking anymore   
And I find it difficult to be with you          
I’m really, really good                               
at confusing you, confusing you
with all my certainties                           

How come you don’t feel like talking anymore    
and I have no more patience                    
I’d like to remedy                                     
everything right away                               
defending myself, defending myself        
with snippets of set phrases                      

Maybe you also think                      
that we’re too different                             
I wish I could speak with your mouth        
right now                                                    
and maybe you also think               
that we’re too different                            
I wish I could see                                    
with your eyes                                         
with your eyes                                         

How come you don’t feel like talking anymore 
and you’ve already seen me break free too many times       
so frightened of my weaknesses                    
hiding myself, hiding myself                         
pretending not to understand                         

and maybe you also think                     
that we’re too different                             
I wish I could speak with your mouth           
right now                                                 
Maybe you also think                     
that we’re too different                            
I wish I could see with your eyes….   
I wish I could see with your eyes ….   

with your eyes                                  
with your eyes                                  
let you guide me                               
stay with you                                    
let you guide me                               

You know full well that a drop in the sky is a deluge 
so small is the world that observes us    
You know full well that I’m not asking for much now    
so clear is the sea that listens to us and sends us to sleep        

(A) I’d like to try                               
I’d like to offer you my hands          
I’d like to try                                     
I’d like to protect this moment          
(B) and I think I feel confused and happy   
and I think I feel confused and happy         
and I think I feel...                                       

Ah…  ah…  ah… ah…

You know full well that I’m trembling and it’s not cold      
and I’m a victim of this immense joy         
you know full well that nothing can affect us now      
so fragile is the world that awaits us, that scares us         

(A)……… 

I’d like to try again                                   
I’d like to protect this moment                 

(B)………

confused and happy                                  
confused and happy                                  
confused and happy                                  

you know full well that a drop in the sky is a deluge       
so small is the world that observes us           

You know how to tease me                  
your stories scare me                          
and right now I need to be scared       
to chase and not catch you           
know everything about you                
what’s the use                                     
what’s the use...                                  

You know how to tease me                  
your stories amuse me                         
and right now I need to laugh a lot                                        
to hide and not look for you                            
know everything about you                
what’s the use                                     
what’s the use…                                  

And now more than ever I’d like          
to feel the warmth of your hands         
find the courage                                    
to trust your caresses                           
…trust your caresses                           

I remember the bitter cold the faint lamenting of my people     
packed in a crowded freight train               
for two days and nights without sleep     
and soon enough we would stop talking, soon enough          

I remember the bitter cold day       
we lost our children forever           
hungry, thirsty, divested of our clothes    
and it was like swallowing shards of glass          

(A) and soon enough we would stop talking    
soon enough we would stop understanding     
and each time I learned how to take one more sip    
and each time I learned how to take one more sip    
more than I really needed                            
more than I really needed                            
I could be thirsty one day                         

I remember the bitter cold the fear of sinking     
into a bed of hot coals                                         
what logic or human law will ever be able to explain       
the diabolical deed devised by those elected men… 

(A)………"

Fortunately I still have the common sense            
to question myself                         
I’d gladly do without your handbooks              
on self-esteem                                           

Fortunately the agonizing procession of flowers from you
ended several days ago 
I’m still throwing up our last romantic
meal together...    
sad, bored and dried out      
I would be your tainted Venus 
sad, bored and dried out 
I would be no use as prey    

(A) you’ll see you’ll see in the end                      
you’ll get a sordid thank you, you will              
the appropriate smile just right for the occasion, you’ll see… 

Fortunately I always make the mistake
of not taking myself too seriously    
and I can gladly do without                        
your practical sex and success … 
sad, bored and dried out                   
I would be your  tainted Venus 
sad, bored and dried out                   
I would be your  tainted Venus
I would be no use as prey… 

(A)(x2)………

I can still smell your fuming words           
your words on me                                   
that’s the only thing                                     
you left me....                                             

sad, bored and dried out I would be
your tainted Venus  (x5)                                   

Now that my blood is infected         
nobody will want to lick my wounds anymore   
and I have found all the gold in the world   
in my pockets, isn’t that great           
I even got through winter                          
and I prayed long and hard               
I even got through winter                           
and I sang.......                                             

Now that I feel really, really cold                
I can count on the warm embrace of two blankets      
and I have found all the emptiness in the world     
in a compassionate caress                   
I even got through winter                   
and I prayed long and hard                 
I even got through winter                   
and I sang for a long time…               

(A) and I’m not tired at all                  
and I’m not tired at all                  
and I’m not tired at all                  
and I’m not tired at all                  

Now that I’m in this hell hole       
angels, friends and brothers have taken flight         
and I have found all the emptiness in the world       
in your pockets, in your remorse          
I even got through winter                             
and I prayed long and hard                          
I even got through winter                             
and I sang for a long time…                        

(A)(x2)……… 

now that I’ve lost everything

I would put up with what offends me the most         
I witness those gestures driven by your stupidity    
I would put up with what kills me the most      
I would still know how to be faithful to myself    

(A) slimy smiles spread no warmth        
I’ve already made my choice between good and bad     
after all you know that appearances don’t fool me      
you only managed to get a bit of silence out of me....   
easy to say that you can take everything you want         

you only managed to get a bit of silence out of me       
only a bit of silence                                             
you just wasted your superior breath………             

I would put up with what offends me the most        
I would still know how to be faithful to myself    

(A)………

you only managed to get a bit of silence out of me       
a bit of silence out of me                              
a bit of silence out of me                              
a bit of silence out of me                              

you only managed to get a bit of silence out of me       
a bit of silence out of me                              
a bit of silence out of me                             
a bit of silence out of me...

Maybe I won’t be able to give you the best       
many times you found my efforts useless      
Maybe I won’t be able to give you the best       
many times you found my gestures ridiculous    

(A) as if having given up on myself                   
weren’t enough                       
as if all the power of my love
weren’t enough....                          

(B) and all I did was feel like a misfit
so I changed everything about me         
because I wasn’t enough                           
and I have only just realized that you were ......frightened                            

maybe I won’t be able to give you the best            
but I added things up and discovered that I don’t have more to give          

(A)……… 

and all I did was feel like a misfit        
and I changed everything about me        
because I wasn’t enough                           
and I have only just realized     

(B)………

You have never heard it said                 
that the beauty of things loves to       
be hidden                                            
and what I have inside is strong          
far from mediocre                         
and I risked losing everything so as not to..... succumb to it

You have never heard it said                 
that the beauty of things loves to       
surprise you                                    
and what I have inside is strong          
far from mediocre                          
and I blindfolded my eyes long ago so as not to…….see it                 

(A) and I would have liked to have been among your most beautiful words
getting a shiver from the look in your eyes          
and I would have liked to have been in your distracted replies           

We spent a long time weaving in and out of those exquisitely contorted conversations    
without coming to any conclusion               
and what I have inside is strong          
and far from mediocr
I followed that deafening sound so as not to........hear it       
( A ) X 1

I eveileb ni em, I eveileb ni em          
ni ym evol                                           
I eveileb ni em, I eveileb ni em          
ni ym evol                                           
rof tra, rof tra                                       
ew eid